Solstice Poems—6: Mind Eraser
Published by IGNU ©1996 in Solstice 6; previously titled, 'Does he know, I Couldn't Live Like...That?'
Waking up to a world Who had seen me naked, With my chest Split open, revealing My heart. I never noticed. Or, Rather had no knowledge of The fact... and showered, not realizing-- I should be wondering. Until he called. "What the hell were you doing last night?!" My response is one of humor, sarcasm, "What were YOU doing last night?!!" And, he said he was sleeping, like he was supposed to because he had to work in the morning. "O.K.???" Where does the conversation go? And, then asking favors, Which I readily accept doing, Not knowing, but Only because I'd do anything for a friend. And, he says, DON'T ever do it again!" CLICK............................. My eyes let go tears before my mind understood Why. Then, I knew—I went somewhere last night. Investigation revealed: Two bars, friends, conversation, closing. During it all, a 'couple' drinks. And my body's own chemical produced cocktail. —A mind eraser. Something in my DNA, Not in a non-medical dictionary. Still, Defined simply enough though: It means you're an alcoholic. Having someone tell me, define for me, what those often blank days in my life meant, Made me know I shouldn't take another drink. I wonder if someday I will, FORGETTING One drink could erase my life. W- (Hertz) Gray, 1995
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Wow. Powerful stuff right there!